17-12-23
Pranams to all🙏
Our loving mother gave me an opportunity to perform Bharathnatyam in front of her this time on the previous evening of Jagruta Shakti Day. I was filled with joy and choreographed for 3 dance items. As it was the life time opportunity to perform in Amma’s divine presence , I had put more effort and practiced them well.
I was all set to perform in front of Amma and took Amma’s blessings and started dancing. I had the pride that I am the luckiest amongst all my friends who got an opportunity to dance in front of Sakshaath Natya Saraswathi.
I started performing the first dance item in front of Amma . As I was facing Amma directly, I couldn’t bare the energy that was emitting from her , I couldn’t look into Amma’s face while dancing and my energy level dropped to zero. I some how managed completing the 1st dance but couldn’t continue to the next dance. I went to Amma and kept my head on her lap and Amma asked me to take a short break and Veena Vadhana program started.
I went and sat outside the hall, then Tulsi sister came to me and asked me to pray to Amma and surrender. It took me more than 30 mins to get back to normal state. Sitting outside the hall , I realized that Amma broke the ego that is ‘I’ in me, and prayed Amma to give me the strength to look into her eyes and dance.
Amma who heard her child’s cry , blessed me to perform again and this time I could look deep into her eyes and with complete surrender I began to perform my 2nd dance item ‘ Kanchadalayathakshi Kaamakshi’ which describes the beauty of Maa Kaamakshi Devi. I had tears of joy looking at beautiful form of mother, I started crying seeing the overwhelming beauty of mother in front me and I ran and hugged Amma tightly and started crying with joy in my heart. She made me drink water from her glass and said ” You danced very well, I’m seeing myself in you, you are looking like me”.
Most of them in the hall had tears along with me and came and told me that the energy within me was very different and divine compared to the first dance.
That’s when I understood, when we completely surrender ourself with faith, the Divine takes over the play🙏🙏🙏
Vaibhavi