When you sit for meditation rewind your memory, go back to that moment where you din’t carry your identity. You can do it, search for that one moment in your entire journey. Go back when you were in your 40’s , 30’s, 20’s and don’t give up and concentrate and it will slowly take you to your memories back when you were a little 5 year old child. As you further concentrate it will slowly take you back to mother’s womb and maintain that stillness and you will see the bright white light surrounded with golden aura and there you will see yourself. Give time to yourself, spend time with yourself, meditate on your higher self, become one with that light. My love to all .
